Free Choice

Career choices , career choices , career choices. I want to be everything in the world ; a tattoo artist, a gynecologist, a physiatrist, a lawyer , a dolphin, business owner , etc anything you can think of I wanted to be but it's fear in my heart . What if I'm not suppose to be successful? What if I go to college and end up with no job ? What if I fail ? What if I succeed to end up right where I started ? These are questions that run through my head . 

I'm not confident in my abilities , yeah I'm smart but then I'm not because it's always someone smarter . I have to fight to be heard because teachers have favorites and will continue to pick on them in class . I'm a loud person but at the same time I'm quiet . When it comes to current things I just stay shut because I don't want to sound dumb or stupid . 

I don't really know what my purpose of this blog was but I wrote it anyways . I want to be that person that people look up to and say " I want to be like Lavonnie when I go up." It that hard to ask . I want to be the one to make it and take care of my family , I feel as if that's my responsibility . I got everything together and I'm on track but I still need someone on my back . Once people find out you on the right track they seem to let go . No ! I need someone to motivate me because things get hard and you really have no one to turn to . 

I'm use to being that support system for my self  and it's ok . It's not people that define who I am nor what I have done but it's up to me . I will make myself proud before I worry about making anybody else proud . 

Self-Selected Response

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Caught on camera: NYPD officer cracks alleged fare beater in head with nightstick

In the clip that I've given you the link to above , a young man got hit  in the head by a police officer's nightstick. I don' t know about anybody else but I am tired of every week police being apart of another violent attack on a minorities. When I first watched the video it kinda hurt because, in the first couple of seconds , you see a young man get hit with a nightstick in the head by a police officer then run . Throughout the video the you can tell there was no reason for the extreme force that was used. In Participation in Government , where discussion a variety if things from your rights to criminal and civil cases. So know I have a little more knowledge about law and enforcing it. What is allowed and what isn't.

When is the government and authorities going to stand up for people? Aren't the police suppose to protect and serve? Actions like this are unnecessary , just like when black were hosed and beaten with nightsticks to be put in "order." People are untitled to rights , everybody is untiled to rights. The law is unfair it's plain and simple. Look at all the accidents that have happened in the past couple of years.

Things need to change. Why is that minorities are always being attacked? No offense but when was the last time you heard about a white person getting beat or killed by a cop ?  There are  a lot of question in the atmosphere. When will they be answers? Its scary that it won't change . Young black hispanic and blacks shouldn't have to worry about getting stopped and harassed by police . It hits home because my nephew will eventually be a statics. People should be able to live without being in fear . The only way violence could stop is if police stop first !

Interdisciplinary post

I do not know how I am going to survive college ! Welcome to the life of a senior . This past week I had about 3-4 mental breakdowns , the amount of work we are getting is overwhelming .  I understand when you go to college you will be getting assignments from almost all of your classes  but this is crazy . 

On Wednesday I had a pre-cal test , was given a Physics project and was assigned an essay that was do on Monday . I have a first draft of a paper for Ms.Hegeman also due Monday . Next , on Thursday I had to present my Supreme Court case to the class for my participation in government class . Then on Friday , which is going to be a half of day , I have a lovely presentation I'm my AP Lit class . 

I know teaches talk amongst each other so do they not know all these due dates over lap . I might sound like I'm complaining but I'm just expressing my opinion . On top of all these class assignments , we have to apply for colleges ! I knew senior year was going to be hard but gosh somebody could of warned me with specific details . 

My senior class just has to suck it up I guess . We are about to enter the real world were people won't care about others things only  there's . Maybe , teachers are trying to build us as stronger students so we could manage our time so we don't get overwhelmed . All I know is this marking period I have to do way better than I did first marking period . 

All these classes are stressful along with the college process but I'm going to come out senior year alive , Trust me . 

Passionate Blog

What I am passionate about ? When you think about the word passionate the first thin that comes to mind is something you have deep love for it and from that definition one person I am passionate about my nephew . My nephew name is Aiden and he is like the best baby in the world . I love that little boy so much ; I kept him as my home screen so if I'm having a bad day I look at his picture and he puts a smile on my face . When I look at him I just want him to have the perfect life , I don't want him to have to struggle or go through anything in his life . 

I see how children are growing up now and I'm scared for Aiden to grow up . He already got two little teeth at the bottom of his tiny mouth and I was bought to have a heart attack . Looking at him every day motivates me and pushes me . I wanna be a role model for him because I'm the youngest of my mother children and I didn't really have nobody looking up to me . I want to be the cool but strict aunt. I want to help him solve problems and go through it with him . I want him to enjoy his life , be his own person and not struggle . Is that impossible ? I hope not . 

Class Write

AP Literature , what a class ! I not going to lie the first week of this class and I was ready to drop the class . I was in AP English and Composition last year and I thought this class was going to be similar , was I wrong . Ms.Hegeman is a good teacher but the work can be crazy sometimes . For example , the first week of school we did a nuts and bolts worksheet , where we defined different literary terms , that part was easy . Then we started to get tested on the pages individually . Those test are annoying and kind of hard for the simple fact that some of the definitions on the test don't be the same definitions I study for . 

Another thing , that Summer homework was ridiculous . I understand we need to learn more about poetry  , how to read and understand it , but seriously ? First , it is an unrealistic goal to want children , that don't even read poetry  , to write a 500 word reflective analysis for 5 poems all by different poets . Like why do you think we could do that ? 500 of our own words ? That's like impossible ; some of the poems were harder than others . Yes , might understand some of the poem but we have to research information in order to reach that limit . Then its like when you write the teacher wants to hear " your voice " when they're reading but then but a limit on it . I liked paraphrasing and doing TPCASTT that was the more easier part because it's what you think . How you look at and interpret things ; that is when students want to do things . But overall I enjoy my AP Literature class and can't wait to learn more things . 

Free Write (Senior Year)

OMG ! It's really my senior year . I always dreamed about the day I would finally be able to say I am a senior . Reality is scary and you find out things like that during your senior year . Yesterday , September 23 which was my birthday , my school took us to a SUNY college fair . I remember the first time I went to a college  fair I cried like real tears .  Apart of senior year is going through the whole college application process only if you want to go to college . When you go to your first college fair it is nerve racking . You going to all the college stations that colleges you are interesting in but as soon as you start asking questions and they answer you start to freak out. Colleges start hitting you with you need a 90+ average to even be able to apply to there school . You start to think you'll never get into school .  College your really by yourself . I'm so going to miss everybody in my class and some people from the school . Class of 2015 , we are the best . I been friends with some of these people since 4th grade and to think the people you seen everyday for years aren't going to be there . Everybody are going to go there separate ways  , you have to grow up one day . I'm just trying to past all of my classes this year that would be beautiful if all the teachers would just give me a 85-95 in there class that would make everything so much easier . Why do we even have to take classes our senior year we don't need not of them but that's only if you on track .  I'm so excited for senior year and all the activities ; senior trip , prom , graduation , picture day , the year in general . I made it forget what everybody else talking about I'm going to do me . People don't never think . Is college right for me ? I am going to be successful in college ? In life ? This are the question people don't stop to ask themselves . I'm not saying I'm not going yo college because I am I'm just saying . Adults or people always suggest college , yes you can go far in life with college but so can you without . School isn't for everybody people learn and do better in different environments .