Career choices , career choices , career choices. I want to be everything in the world ; a tattoo artist, a gynecologist, a physiatrist, a lawyer , a dolphin, business owner , etc anything you can think of I wanted to be but it's fear in my heart . What if I'm not suppose to be successful? What if I go to college and end up with no job ? What if I fail ? What if I succeed to end up right where I started ? These are questions that run through my head .
I'm not confident in my abilities , yeah I'm smart but then I'm not because it's always someone smarter . I have to fight to be heard because teachers have favorites and will continue to pick on them in class . I'm a loud person but at the same time I'm quiet . When it comes to current things I just stay shut because I don't want to sound dumb or stupid .
I don't really know what my purpose of this blog was but I wrote it anyways . I want to be that person that people look up to and say " I want to be like Lavonnie when I go up." It that hard to ask . I want to be the one to make it and take care of my family , I feel as if that's my responsibility . I got everything together and I'm on track but I still need someone on my back . Once people find out you on the right track they seem to let go . No ! I need someone to motivate me because things get hard and you really have no one to turn to .
I'm use to being that support system for my self and it's ok . It's not people that define who I am nor what I have done but it's up to me . I will make myself proud before I worry about making anybody else proud .
